I'm barely visible in a city of simple civilians
sipping Starbucks drinks inside city meridians
My thoughts are barely audible amongst this awful sidewalk-lined island
marked with day-walkers looking for a pot of gold
The solitude I seek to be in isn't anywhere
Bearded people on the streets with untuned guitars want a penny there
Penny here; penniless
Offer me a petty threat
I'm just a spider crying hungry in an empty web
I tell 'em to feed me flies, they feed me goodbyes
Goodbye, oxymoronic terms in my life
If I were a magician I would disappear
It isn't simple, and isn't clear
Phosphorescent memories, luminous little head on me
My heart is a backstabber; my spinal chord's the victim
Vision coming and leaving me
Woman I love deceiving me
Subconscious defeating me
My brain's committing thievery
Evil deeds I've committed are frequently keeping me from falling asleep
The exhaustion is peaking
Hovering blank in a world that I hate
So much to thank, but instead I escape away
And I don't know where to run from
And I don't how who to talk to
I'm lost looking for someone
Don't talk unless you know what I've gone through
A nightmare playing fast forward
My mind can be vicious
Sustenance may lack
I'm dying of thirst
Our doubts never leave
We’ve got a warped view of evil
Fuck the people who say fuck the police
And fuck the police who say fuck the people
Yup - I’m just trying to leap frog over obstacles
Most obstacles have names and jobs and cars
They're cold as popsicles
I find the way they lie to me kind of comical
If I've learned anything, even genius is fallible
You can't fit life's meaning in a mouth's caliber
I've also learned, what you learn might hurt
Hold your hand to a fire, it burns
No shit.
I've noticed the closer you hold another heart to your own,
it corrodes, but expands first so fat
It stings so bad
On the day that it breaks in half
One partner will joke and laugh
The other one's brain might snap
Precisely now many bandages need be applied
before the pain runs dry
Eye for an eye - spine for a dagger
Cuz people don't hold signs that say danger
And even though I like to drink
I got a pity for the people who party harder than they think
And I don't know where to run from
And I don't how who to talk to
I'm lost looking for someone
Don't talk unless you know what I've gone through
A nightmare playing fast forward
My mind can be vicious
Sustenance may lack
I'm dying of thirst
I want to get lost in a warm place,
I want to get lost in a warm place.
Zambian rapper and producer Abstract Sekai fuses golden era hip-hop with ambient sound design and a heady cosmic philosophy. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 17, 2023