I know beautiful people who have hurt other beautiful people
I know beautiful people who have hurt other beautiful people
I know beautiful people who have hurt other beautiful people
I know beautiful people who have hurt others
I know hideous individuals
I’ve been grossly underestimated
I’ve lied to loved ones
And my hearts been decimated
The women who I fall in love with tend to disappear
I get stuck
It’s a pattern I can’t wiggle free from
When the hurt swells the size of a tree trunk
Maybe I’m too boring
Or maybe I’m too cautious
I wish I could enjoy going to clubs and dancing
But my insecurities stop it
I try so hard for no one to notice
I’m just a ghost swimming in a bowl of goldfish
Or a tree trying to grow limbs
Hanging on by a thread to my focus
Tell me a secret
I’ll tell you my world
Of an empty refrigerator, and disappointed girls
Looking through old pictures and tripping the fuck out
I’ve lost so many people I thought I couldn’t live without
I remember being 16 - I thought I’d smoke weed forever
Then my anxiety problems came around and fucked it all up
A gut full of knots and a mouth full of fingernails
If you let it, guilt will impale you
Growing up with the best of families
I’ve learned so much that you can’t teach
I’m getting adjusted to love being nothing but a dream
I’ve come to understand time creeps by caterpillar speed
I am not a god amongst insects
And success doesn’t smell like incense
We fall out of love and lose touch with our best friends
We get careers, lose our hair, and then it ends
One day I might meet the perfect girl
Meet her when she’s young; watch her body unfurl
One day I might make somebody happy
Lace a jewel-studded ring on a hand’s reach
One day I might have children
They’ll call me daddy, convinced I know how the world works
One day I’ll die
People will cry
And for that I’m sorry
I know beautiful people who have hurt other beautiful people
We’re all beautiful people, and we hurt other beautiful people.
Zambian rapper and producer Abstract Sekai fuses golden era hip-hop with ambient sound design and a heady cosmic philosophy. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 17, 2023