If I spent half as much energy attaching to animosity
I might have made it to planet earth, possibly
My head is a hospice, my thoughts are blank signs
Life is like a cloud, but I’m not sure how that applies
I got a tattoo of a planet on my left chest
Beneath it lies an entire galaxy of deep breaths
Balancing my dreams like spinning plates atop regrets
Unshaven and un-slept, I am underkept
I’ve watched particles dance in skies most alive
With consequence arriving while disguised
And playing with trinkets, playing with heart strings
Alarming - reminds me of the tune that a harp sings
“No offence…” Well, none taken
But if you thought it might bother me, why the fuck did you say it?
It’s part of the old art of pretty civil evil
Why do bad things happen to superficial people?
If there’s one thing I’ve learned since departing from home
Another person’s beauty is not the absence of your own
If we spent as much time as we do looking at our phones
Looking at the world around us, we’d go out and buy a phone
“Mom, why do the best people die?”
I could tell you heaven’s waiting, but that’d be a lie
I’m listening to the rain beat the dirt like drums
Forever alone ain’t so bad if you die young
I’v never kissed a girl who wasn’t beautiful
I’ve never told a lie without a purpose
That’s a lie.
And its not that I mind money talks
It just needs to learn when to shut the fuck up
These people are math, I just can’t equate
With the solutions they give and the problems they make
Do not listen to her perfectly painted lies
Do not fall victim to her glossy manga eyes
I gave up sucking smoke out of cylinders
But its true, the confusion is perpendicular
I want my breath to enter into your lungs
I want my name to roll off of your tongue
With lingering anxiety in a skull and imagination most potent
Push comes to pull
Pull comes to guilt, and guilty is a gateway drug
What will I become when the blood-brain barrier breaks up?
So these scars and scrapes that lace my face
Are reminders of the sentiments that memories make
You can put your hands out
Try to catch these words falling out of my mouth